Louise Thompson’s fiancé Ryan Libbey has revealed she was under suicide watch following a traumatic birth
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Louise Thompson’s fiancé Ryan Libbey has revealed she was under suicide watch following a traumatic birth

Author: Sean O’grady for Mailonline

22:47 09 Jul 2024, updated 23:49 09 Jul 2024

Ryan Libbey has revealed that his fiancée Louise Thompson was under suicide watch after she almost died while giving birth to their son Leo.

The 34-year-old Made In Chelsea star spent five weeks in hospital in 2021 after the birth of Leo, struggling with “serious complications”.

Since then, she has struggled with post-traumatic stress disorder and postpartum anxiety, and has said that in one week in January 2022, she cried up to 20 times.

Personal trainer Ryan spoke about the toll Louise’s struggles had on him, admitting that for the first 10 months of Leo’s life the couple had daily visits from carers.

Speaking on the Exercising The Demons podcast hosted by his friend and former MIC star Joshua Patterson, Ryan said: “The first 10 months of Leo’s life were bad, but I don’t think things could have been much worse at home given the environment we just had to exist in.

Louise Thompson’s fiancé Ryan Libbey has revealed she was under suicide watch following a traumatic birth
Ryan Libbey has revealed his fiancée Louise Thompson was on suicide watch after she almost died giving birth to their son Leo
The ‘Made In Chelsea’ star, 34, spent five weeks in hospital in 2021 after the birth of Leo, suffering from ‘serious complications’

“The physical consequences of three major operations are one thing, but what they did to Louise’s mental state completely unsettled her as a human being.

“We had caregivers come in every day, but she was also on suicide watch because she was saying things like, ‘I just can’t get through this and I don’t even want to.’

“She couldn’t even look at Leo, let alone hold him. So for 10 months I had to keep the house filled with medical personnel of all walks of life.”

Ryan added that he had to take on the role of mother to Leo because Louise was unable to look after him.

He said: “Leo, I was a little against biology, because Leo at that time, like any newborn, missed his mother, and I had to fill that role, which is incredibly difficult.

“When I got to the end of those 10 months, I was in such a bad state. I had pushed myself to such an extent that I was of no use to the people around me. I was so deeply unhappy and I was sorely lacking in energy and patience.

“I had a lot of resentment too, and it started to seep through. I started to resent Louise. I don’t want to say Leo, but just the version of becoming a father that I had. I would really struggle with that.”

Following the podcast’s premiere, Ryan took to Instagram to thank people for their “incredibly kind” messages.

Personal trainer Ryan spoke about the toll Louise’s struggles had on him, saying that for the first 10 months of Leo’s life the couple received daily visits from carers
Ryan said: “The physical consequences of three major operations are one thing, but what they did to Louise’s mental state was completely unsettling her as a person.”

He wrote: “I’m absolutely blown away by the response to the 6am episode. It’s already had over a million views and I’ve spent a good chunk of the day responding to some incredibly kind messages.

“I can’t thank @joshuapatterson_jp and you as listeners enough. You’ve given me the time and space to open up and expose some really vulnerable parts of my life.

“Getting to a place where I feel comfortable talking about it is empowering for me, and I hope it encourages more men to talk about it and open up.

“In my relationship with Louise, I feel like I have lived 10 lifetimes with lots of ups and downs. This is our 8th year together.

“We met in 2016 and have been through so much since then. The great thing is that we now have a greater sense of understanding, respect and love for each other than ever before, and that is definitely a positive side to all of this.

Because so many changes have occurred in my life over the years, it is difficult for me to know where to begin.

“From my time on Made In Chelsea, which, as you know, was difficult at times. To my relationship with Louise and what it was like dating someone in the public eye and what that did to me as a regular guy.

Ryan added: “When I got to the end of those 10 months, I was in such a bad state. I had pushed myself to the point where I was unhelpful to the people around me.”

“To my relationship with my son Leo and adjusting to fatherhood. To how I coped with the pressures of Leo’s first 10 months as mum and dad, while also looking after Louise through her darkest days.

The body remembers these difficult experiences and although I am now in a state of peace and acceptance, it obviously affected me negatively.

“I have so much to say and I can’t wait to do it with Louise on our new podcast coming out soon. Thanks again for all your support.”

It comes after Louise admitted her relationship with Ryan had “completely fallen apart” following her difficult birth.

Speaking to Closer magazine, Louise revealed how health issues contributed to the deterioration of her relationship with personal trainer Ryan, with their friends and family thinking they were going to split up.

She said: “Trauma permeates every aspect of your life. Now, two and a half years later, I’m at a place where I look back and thank Ryan for the things he did.

‘But there were times in the beginning when we completely fell apart – we had no connection.

“We shouldn’t have stayed together. It was all really destructive. I think we were both dealing with our own versions of trauma and dealing with it very differently.”

Louise added that it had been “really hard” for Ryan to watch the person he loved “completely fall apart” and she doesn’t think he knows how to cope with it.

The star is now glad that she and Ryan got through this difficult period together and doesn’t think any of her previous relationships would have survived this crisis.

The couple had put their wedding plans on hold due to Louise’s health issues. In a recent conversation, Ryan told her that the wedding would be very important to him.

Louise told how health problems caused her relationship with Ryan to suffer to the point that their friends and family thought they would split up

She said: “We shouldn’t have stayed together. It was all really destructive. I think we were both dealing with our own versions of trauma and we dealt with it very differently.”

The couple are once again in the early stages of planning their wedding, with Louise insisting she is in no rush and has set a provisional date for late next year.

In December, Louise shared how she felt “a bit lost” over the Christmas break after “putting a ton of stuff in” to cope with post-traumatic stress disorder.

The TV personality added that his focus in 2024 is on his “recovery” and that the “break” is “a project he needs to fully commit to.”

Louise and Ryan didn’t announce the birth of their baby for five weeks due to serious complications during delivery.

On December 23, 2021, Louise announced on her Instagram profile that she had given birth to a son and shared that she had been discharged from hospital to recover at home.

She said: “5 weeks ago I gave birth to my beautiful little boy Leo-Hunter Libbey weighing 7lbs. Unfortunately it wasn’t the easiest start for either of us. One ended up in the neonatal intensive care unit and the other in the intensive care unit.

Louise said Leo recovered quickly but she had to deal with “a lot of bad things”, adding: “Dancing with death twice brings a whole new perspective on the world.”

In December, two years after Leo was born, she reflected on the time that had passed since the traumatic events.

She said: “Here’s a reminder that a lot can change in a year. A lot can change in 6 months. A lot can change in a month, but it’s hard to witness change until you create a significant distance from it.

“I’m crying as I write this. I’m very emotional today. I can’t lie that it feels good to purge my pain. I encourage you to try writing and crying.

‘Sometimes it helps. But the main reason I’m writing this is because I really want you to know that you have to keep moving forward. Don’t give up. Because there will come a time when you’ll want to wear a nice dress to a party again. You’ll shine again.’